It's been a while!
This morning our exam results were released (at least whether we'd passed or failed) and I actually woke up 15 minutes late. Regardless, 15 minutes late, I found out that I'd passed my exams (both the written exams and the OSCEs) and I cried - something I'm not ashamed to admit because the stress of these exams has been a brand new experience for me and the thought of having to face them again was hideous. We've all been working exceptionally hard since at least mid-March for the June sits, able to be asked virtually anything about what we've studied throughout the entire year.
Equally from talking to colleagues it seems to be a mixed bag - some are disappointed with the way things have gone, deeply understandable but just another hurdle in what already feels like a very long game. As I've said before however, this is the most nurturing and supportive peer-group environment I've ever found myself in and through the student-led Regroup teaching and any additional help we can provide our friends, I have every faith they'll make it through this time.
Just to capture my state of mind authentically, I was fully expecting to be dashing back to Warwick immediately after finding out that I'd failed - I only brought one change of clothes back with me and the contents of a rucsack. Quick change of plans is needed.
Speaking for myself though, I'm really excited for the future - there are a ton of projects I can finally start tackling with the weight of these exams off my shoulders and I can enjoy some proper downtime. It's the end of June and we're not back at med school until mid-late September, so there's plenty of time to kick back. Planning some short holidays with friends and generally trying to make the most of the glorious weather we're being treated to at the moment.
Onwards and upwards - I'll be posting occasionally on here throughout the summer if anything relevant happens but otherwise will see you all in September!